Hellllo Friday! First I wanted to thank you girls SO much for all your amazing feedback from my insta stories yesterday (it’s still up today if you want to check them out and chime in too!). I feel like I have a pretty good idea of what my Honeybee readers like to see but the extra insight makes it so much easier when planning fun and new content for you girls in 2020!! Speaking of new content, today’s post is something I’ve been wanting to start incorporating for quite some time (literally since last Summer!) but never really knew how to kick it off and just kept putting it off. So instead of putting it off one more dayyy, I’m just going to start! Today is my first “Let’s Talk” post. These posts are more about life challenges, random Sh!t, and basically a place where you girls can chime in too. I love sharing here but can’t tell you how many times YOUR advice and recs have totally helped me too. So LET’S TALK!
I haven’t quite figured out if this will be done more Q&A style in the future (maybe you girls send in topics etc) or if it’s just going to be random ramblings but here are some random things on my mind lately…
First and foremost something that has been super heavy in our household is that Louie was diagnosed with a really aggressive cancer last year. It’s something we’ve been dealing with behind the scenes and you guys, she pretty much is in last stages now and it’s SO hard (okay now I know why I put this series off for so long bc I’m totally balling writing this post before pick up today). But honestly it’s just been a rough 9 months. It started when we saw some lumps come up on her hind leg so we went to the vet to have them removed. They biopsied it and basically said that she had a really aggressive cancer and to keep her comfortable as she didn’t have a lot of time left. My husband and I were absolutely shocked! She seemed completely normal and acted normal for the next 7 months. Then we started seeing the lumps reappear (some getting larger than golf balls) and we would have them removed (four times she had to be put under to have them removed).
Then last month things spiraled really quickly. She is barely eating, constantly vomiting and having accidents, and has a lot of trouble even breathing. We took her to get an X-Ray a couple weeks ago and it shows an extremely large tumor in her stomach and my hubby and I are just absolutely dreading the inevitable. We don’t want her to be in pain but making that final decision is just so so hard. I personally have never had to put down a dog before and we both know it’s coming but neither of us is ready.
We’ve been trying to prepare the kids as best we can with them being so little. It’s going to be especially difficult for Ava as I feel like the last year and half she has really become so attached to her. She was crying the morning we left for Cayman because she was so sad to leave Louie alone for Christmas (ugh!). If you have any advice for preparing the kids plllease feel free to share. I know she is 11 years old but it doesn’t make it any easier and has been so heavy on our hearts lately.
This is way overdue but some of you may remember when I shared on IG stories that Ava had a rough start to second grade this year. She loves her school but this year she didn’t get the classroom she wanted with all of her friends that she had been in Pre School- 1st grade with. I was secretively kind of glad that she didn’t because I really wanted her to branch out of her comfort zone and meet new friends too. I figured she would be bummed for a couple weeks and then would bounce back, but that didn’t happen. It was over two months of crying every. single. day at drop off 🙁 and a couple meetings with her teacher until she finally started to get into the swing of things. It’s just one of those things that you know they have to go through but ugh it’s so heavy on your heart.
Turns out she was also having issues with a boy in her class and once we remedied that it got better. I have been meaning to thank you girls for the DMs you sent me who had gone through something similar with your littles. It was definitely comforting so thank you for taking the time to send me those. I’m sure this is just the beginning of the heartaches a mama feels when your little ones start growing up and you can’t be with them all the time.
The Struggle with the Juggle
This isn’t something new and I think that we all probably can relate here but so often I get asked “how do you do it all?” or “you make it look so effortless” and I guess that’s the downside to Instagram. Even though we all know it’s the “highlight reel” it’s easy to forget that it’s only the highlights. You can get so caught up and invested in what everyone else is doing (guilty there too) that I think it’s so important to stop and take a look at what makes YOU happy.
Someone (on Instagram can’t remember now who) said if an account makes you feel like crap, delete them (or mute them – SUCH an amazing update to be able to mute on IG right?!) but honestly it’s true. Social media should be a place of inspiration but a lot of times it can leave you feeling blah and down on yourself. So just try to keep that in mind next time you catch yourself headed that direction and know that I most definitely struggle with the juggle too. I have a team that helps me and even then we stilllll struggle. If I’m doing amazing in one area, another is most definitely lacking. Trying to balance it all is always a work in progress and all I can say is PRIORITIZE. My family and friendships are always at the top of my list. When I take time off work, I admit I do feel behind or a little stressed but I am at every single thing for my kids, hubby and family and I always make time for my girlfriends (even if we have to book a month in advance) because 20 years from now those relationships are what matter the most. So just some food for thought.
Okay, I promise that if I continue these LET’S TALK posts that they won’t all be this heavy but think it’s important to share the lows sometimes too. If you want to leave some topics you want to see on these posts, feel free to leave them in the comments too.