Hi ladies things have been quite crazy around here lately. I finally have a minute to sit down and update on the past 11 days days after giving birth to little miss Ava. First let me say that becoming a mom is such an blessing and as cliche as it sounds I have never felt love like this. I wasn’t sure I was going to feel that instant bond and love when we met her but I totally did! Also adjusting to life with a newborn was just as hard as I thought it was going to be. I have to say that I have probably cried more times this past week and half than I have all last year! It is quite the adjustment and we are all exhausted. Thankfully I had my mom (who leaves tomorrow ;( and my hubby to help out. They have been so amazing! I think I had a bit of the “baby blues” from what I read online. It was really weird because I just felt sad when I wasn’t really sad (if that makes sense). Its not postpartum but just a mix of hormones, anxiety and exhaustion I think. Each day it gets a little better and we are getting the hang of it.
As for sleep I definitely feel like a zombie! Thankfully she is sleeping in her little co sleeper that attaches to the side of our bed. We’re hoping it continues to work as we don’t want her to sleep in bed with us. We lucked out because 5 out of the 11 days our little lady was getting some solid sleep at night! Last night was a SUPER rough one as she was really gassy and in pain. I felt so helpless and nothing we could do to make her feel better. Im pretty sure it was stuff that I ate (I had a green veggie drink, fruit smoothie and grapefruit juice) which I think might have upset her little tummy. So now I am trying not to be paranoid about everything I eat because it could give her gas. But after a night like last night its hard not to be!
As for breastfeeding, Ava latched on right away pretty much after birth! The first week was brutal on my nipples but we are doing so much better now and she is growing and eating like crazy! Breast feeding has also really helped shrink my tummy back down and i’ve already lost around 18lbs in under 2 weeks! I did not expect that to happen that quickly at all! I am hoping to start pumping today and introducing the bottle soon so my hubby can help out and I can keep my sanity! I think its really important for me to get out and still do little things. I found sitting in the house all day with her really made me feel “blue”. All in all she really has been a good baby and we are in awe of her! I can’t wait for her to get a little bigger so she becomes more alert and interacts with us.
I know there are going to be good days and bad days so just trying to take it one day at a time. Thank you all again for all the love and if you guys have any tips or suggestions I’d love to hear them! Esp on what to eat while breastfeeding and sleeping! xo